It's okay to ask for help.

"Sometimes it's okay not to be okay."

I hate accepting help, admitting that I'm struggling or just that I need a hand.
I see it as a sign of weakness almost like I'm not good enough if I take the help that is offered to me.
Which of course is ridiculous.
I have the best most supportive family and friends, who are forever helping me out in any way they possibly can. I am incredibly lucky in that aspect and I feel like I don't tell them enough how genuinely grateful I am.
Without the support of my family and friends I would not have been able to cope this past year. Some days I struggle to get out of bed. My head feels like it is attacking itself and my whole body aches, but despite how rubbish I feel Lily needs her Mum. Yet some mornings when Lily wakes me up I want to hide under the covers and shut the whole world out. I want to scream and shout, its not fair, why can't I just feel normal, but of course I don't, I keep going and try to be the best Mum I can be to Lily.
Very recently I have began to accept help from the people I love and the people who love me, its hard, but slowly I am getting better at accepting the help I need.
Recently a very good friend of mine took Lily for the whole day when I felt absolutely awful, although I found it really hard to ask for help, because I did I spent the day able to rest and recuperate and I felt so much better after a full day of rest.
What I guess I am learning is that taking help when offered isn't weakness, its necessary.
So, to my friends who have tirelessly supported me and offered help, and sometimes just an ear, Thank you.
To anyone reading this who needs some support or help but are too scared to ask, please do.

Thanks for reading

Danielle x